I have an addiction. Not to alcohol, drugs, sex, junk food, or anything like that. I have an addiction to school. I can’t seem to stop! I know I’ve written before about how I have been in school continuously since kindergarten and I can’t wait to stop. I have 4 classes left before I FINALLY get my bachelor’s degree. Only 13 years after graduating high school, but hey, who’s counting?
Anyway, I have been so looking forward to finishing school. I am so sick of being in debt up to my eyeballs for a degree I’m likely not going to use and I don’t want to add any more debt on. I am happy doing photography and I think I’m pretty good at it and people will pay me for my work (as long as I can get clients through the door which has proven to be quite difficult). I have said for a long time that I should’ve just stopped at the photography degree and started the business 7 years ago when I graduated instead of completely changing directions, going for teaching, and dragging out the bachelors degree for 7 years. Who knows how that would’ve turned out though? I wouldn’t have had some great experiences that I did in college, I wouldn’t have met some great people who I’m happy to have in my life, and my life might just completely suck. I don’t know.
Here’s the crazy part. While I am completely burnt out and fried from the constant homework for the past decade or so, I am actually considering going for my master’s degree. What the hell is wrong with me? Why would I possibly consider torturing myself for an additional two years? I’m already 31. Not getting any younger. Do people even go for their master’s degree this late? I’m sure they do. I don’t know. For once though, I’m not considering it based on just wanting to postpone paying student loans some more. I’m actually thinking I may have come up with something that I could be good at, would allow me time off with my daughters when they have vacations, and would allow me to also have a photography business on the side.
I’m thinking of being a guidance counselor. I think it would be a good fit for me. I like to help people, I have a lot of experience with making stupid decisions concerning education so I could offer a good perspective, I would love the schedule it would allow me to keep, I’d be on the same schedule during the day and vacation schedule as my kids which would be awesome and I’d be in the education field and in a school which I apparently can’t get enough of, but won’t have to actually be teaching which I don’t want to do.
I could have a real career and a side photography business so I could make some real money and still get to do what I love. I just don’t know if I can handle going to school for another two years at a brick and mortar school where I would actually have to take a bunch of classes at the same time. Right now I go online at my own pace and just do one class at a time. It is much less stressful and works well with my schedule. My daughters are getting older though and by the time I would be going, one daughter would be in first grade and the other would be in preschool so I could hopefully go to classes while they are at class and not have to worry about child care or anything like I would have had to a few years ago.
I also want to show my daughters that education is important to me and that I’ve worked hard to get to a good place in life. I want to show them what it means to be dedicated to their education, even after having gotten married and having kids. I didn’t let it slide and just get a waitressing job to make ends meet. I put in the work and made a career for myself. I want to be their example for what they should do, not what they shouldn’t.
I’m sure I sound like the biggest flake ever on this blog, huh? I could probably go through all my old posts and come up with at least 12 different things I’ve wanted to do with my life since I’ve started it. I’ve been all gung ho about a few different things I know and then changed my mind and never pursued it. I don’t know about this time though. I haven’t been thinking of it for more than a day so it’s more than likely that I will change my mind again, but this actually seems doable to me. Two years goes by fast and I’m sure I can do it. The classes seem interesting it doesn’t seem as off the wall as some of the ideas that I’ve had. It fits well with my Educational Studies degree that I’m already working on too. It wouldn’t be some obscure degree where I have to basically start my education all over again.
So that’s where I am right now. I have to write it all down to kind of make sense of my ideas, that’s why there are so many of them on this blog. I always write about my ideas the day they pop into my head and not after having given them some though. So it is entirely possible that in a few days or weeks I will be back on here with some new scheme or plan for my life. Ugh. I really need to stop the flip-flopping! I’ll probably still be deciding on a degree or a career when I’m 84 years old. At least I’ll keep things fresh and interesting though, right? Right?!